Viet Trip

Clockwise: In Front of Uncle Ho, Viet Coffee Culture, Cu Chi Tunnels, Fav Ben Thanh Market

Is this the right decision

Last September, I made a painful decision. I let go of a sweet relationship I had with someone distant. Distant in terms of miles. We kept in contact for the next few months but I was thrown to cold den since March 06. I hardly hear from him, be in emails which frequency dropped from daily to thrice a week to zero. I had thought I was hugely ignored but a text message came on my birthday and that was it.

I did not want to be in melachony as it is my decision and I stuffed it down his throat. Weeks passed and I have gotten used to his absence. I know it is my decision but it is very painful. I did not expect that I would have such bad reaction. I just realised that I loved him

It must be hard that I never say this word to him (ever) in our period together. For more than a year, he wished that I would express my love through words to him. I, on the other hand has never done it. I felt that I have let him down. At that period of time, i did think that is the best decision - to leave him when I love him the least. We are not moving anyway nearer or being together. There is also a question of religion.

I cant concentrate. My mind kept pondering if I have made a right decison. I know it it is a waste of time to keep thinking about it. There is no turning back

Dropping a bomb at your doorstep

It is really strange. I always am a magnet for the strangest people around. Consider that after 2.5 years, a guy who used to be in the cell group who is not visting that group as much came dropping your doorstep without a notice. What will be your immediate action? Is it
a) Welcome the person with open arms?
b) Cut off all forms of communication
c) Have a short meal with the person and make a quick exit

Well... chooisng option C would be the best option right? Well, i did for it is only one hour so how bad can it be. Oh. Bad move. One thing led to another. After lunch, the chap went to Mysia BUT he kept calling me and SMS me. Now that he is back in OZ, he also called me. I always exit with "its a bad timing" until i was caught that it seemed to be a bad timing EVERYTIME. He didnt get it i guess. When he insisted to know my bedtime so that he can call, i know things are screwed somewhere. I had to ask if all his friends enjoy such great attention from him to get an overseas call. Of course not, only his mum does. How do I qualify under the umbrella of family? So he said that he was very happy to see me after all these years and would like to get to know me more becoz he believe we are being connected for a reason. *slap forehead* i mean.. he called me isnt it? The liner that got me in stitches is " your rythmn of you typing is like music to my ears". I mean SERIOUSLY. Trying to hard

Ultimatium was given when he insisted to call me later in the night and i gave a firm no. I would reply to his email. He got the msg but send me an email using emotions. I know it is hard-hearted but I rather be upfront about it then lead someone on right?

Opportunities

Opportunities come knocking by. Recall that I was calling out for an opportunity. It came but i did not take it up. mostly due to the fact that i was brainwashed by my DD. well not to that extend, but i guess what she said makes sense. To excel in the bracket rather that to be a grain of sand on the beach. IR is coming up, so i guess i shd carve something out inm this bracket to be noticed.

Now that thing is that how i get my zeal and motivate myself at work. I wonder how to create that. I was affirmed twice by the word and daph that this is not the right opportunity as yet. How do I get excited for work once again? This answer i must search